TPA 2

This past semester I've been in the Credentialing Program at The Master's College. It has been quite the emotional/physical/mental roller coaster as I've struggled with deciding whether or not this teaching thing is really for me. I've dealt with issues that have pushed me to my limit, others that have literally broken me. And yet I still believe that God has called me to do this with faith and obedience as my tools to push through and succeed.

You'll notice my title is TPA- Teacher Performance Assessment. These are beasts. There are four of them in the year long program and we've finished the first and easiest of them all. The 2nd one which I am in the process of slowly tackling, is due on Monday and I have little motivation to continue.

I know that I need to be diligent and disciplined to persevere, I know that I can and will complete it whether or not I like it. But I also know the one thing stopping me from trying is fear. Fear is what brought me to this point and fear is once again holding me back.

God tells me that He has not given me a spirit of fear (timidity), but of power and love and discipline. Why don't I believe Him? Why don't I trust Him and obey Him and love him?

2 weeks until finals. two days until I find out the results of the CSET which will determine whether or not I continue in the spring with the Student Teaching Assignment. 2 hours until I go to bed.

"Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin that so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." Heb 12:1-2